My Journey
By Robert Neal
My name is Robert Neal and I live in Novi, Michigan. I would like to share my story with as many people as possible. It is a story of trust and love which relates to the Universe and the idea that we can create our own miracles if we have the power to rule ourselves, and not allow the thoughts and beliefs of others to interfere with what we want to do. Healing, for me is in the past, had meant going to the doctor and having him prescribe some kind of chemical to release pain or to provide a "cure", or so I thought. What I discovered this year 2009 was that I had developed an incurable Heart Disease. I was given a very short time to live. I had a meeting with my doctors and they gave me the particulars of what they thought I should do. I walked away from that meeting feeling totally dazed, depressed and with the idea of death looming over my head.
My journey into light began after this point when I started my metaphysical search which led into mysticism and the discovery of self. I truly feel that the buildup of knowledge which has transpired over this period of time, gave me the courage to go forward with a positive attitude and the knowledge that I could find my path to finding myself.
After having seen several heart doctors, I realized no one in the conventional medical field had noting to offer me. I knew I was on my own! Although I felt alone in the beginning, I felt reassured through my spiritual and metaphysical journey I began discussing my reasons with anyone who would listen. I felt that this was my time to understand this aspect of my nature. Once I realized that heart disease was simply a learning tool, not something that was there to consume me, any fear of dying that I may have exhibited in the beginning, promptly disappeared. I began to realize that my heart disease and was not going to stop me from seeking what I need to do. Things that in which I probably need to unlock within the deeper recesses of my mind using my intuition which led to self discovery.
What I began to realize was that people fail to examine themselves from the inside out. We cannot simply place a "band-aid" on the areas of our lives and expect the symptoms never to return. The pain and not knowing is buried very deeply within our emotional nature, and this needs to be examined very critically until we are able to allow the hostility to dissipate. I feel that we can cure ourselves by simply tuning in to our nature through meditation and using our mind as an instrument in understanding why certain things happen the way that they do. Prayer becomes the tool in helping us achieve our sense of well being or healing. Thank God I have my Mother at my side without her I am not sure if I could do any of this.
My Illness had become a learning tool! We are here to examine our natures and to teach ourselves how to be in control. I have learned that being in control is what makes miracles happen. The people we need to guide us along our pathway will materialize when the time is right. But again some people loose there paths and will never be there, until it’s too late for me, healing is a combination of many personal aspects. I cannot simply state that the how much friends and family plays a key roll in ones well being. My Journey is helping me realize my true identity by teaching me to look within in order to truly understand why thing happen. But I also realized that I had to rely upon myself to create the miracle of self observation and coming to terms with my destiny.
To date, I am still always searching my thoughts and feelings and trying to keep myself, in Balance and in total harmony. I have learned how to put some thought into words that I hope other people can understand and get something from it. Taking the initiative to go ahead and try something new is very difficult when we have no support coming from your family for what we feel is correct in our hearts. But I have learned that if we listen to the voice within and muster up our courage to push forward despite all odds, we will be able to overcome the obstacles presented to us. The guidance that we are looking for will materialize, in other words our prayers will be answered if we look within.
The feeling of inner peace and calm is part of our heritage as human beings. I have discovered that if we begin to take charge of our emotions and feelings and try to rule ourselves as much as possible, the idea of inner peace wi11 automatically become a part of our nature. It is only when we allow our emotions to take precedence that disease and other illnesses begin to manifest. What is that phrase "To thine own self be true!" I feel that the key to a healthy family lifestyle is in the discovery of ones own self. In my estimation this concept begins when we are born and continues even after we withdraw from the Earth.
I Am Embracing My Journey, and hopefully we all will find some answers to questions many of us have as to why we, or those we Love, often encounter very serious challenges to health and well being. Even the confrontation of a terminal illness is an important part of each journey. Fear robs our Selves of joys that this life brings each of us. The fear is the Self's ego reacting and bringing turmoil and stress into a life. Fears confuse us with worries, shrouding our view and dimming enjoyment of each moment. Our lives here are all temporary, but our Souls continue. Although death is a seamless transition, no matter how long you have, allow your Self to fully experience each breath in gratitude."
My body is breaking down because of my weakening heart. My legs are thinner and weaker. My breathing is frequently labored. My heart rhythms are often flawed and raced. I seldom enjoy an entire good night's sleep. If I stand or walk too long my back and legs start hurting and giving out and I get dizzy and faint. My heart medications appear to be reaching their limits. But I can't allow my heart to weaken too much to the extent that poor circulation causes irreparable damage to my other vital organs. But in the end there is nothing any of us can do, all we can do is try to make sure we all can find it with in our selves and make amends to thing that if you think about it, was not worth a thought in the first place. There comes a time when we all need to set aside all negative thought and move on, become a family and be there for each other, say you care for one day will come and trust me it will, and you would have had lost the only chance to say the things you wanted and need to say!! “So why waste time”
I hope that by me sharing my thought will help each of you to understand that time is short so never waste it, live your life and never forget the ones around you, family and friends to me are everything. I have come to realize that nothing is more important then FAMILY I love you all so much and am very sorry that we all lost that path which we should be on. The one most important thing I have learned on my own self discovery and spiritual journey is that FAMILY means more then you know.
Thanks for reading this
Robert D Neal
About Donateing Organs. My name is Debbie pic is of my brother Robert who is on Heart pump. in Hospital he needs a Heart,so on this blog u will heart his story and see why we need people to Donate organs and save lives ty
Saturday, September 24, 2011
A NOTE FOR YOU By Robert D Neal
A NOTE FOR YOU
By Robert D Neal
This was my horoscope today, it hit home. Aries March 21 - April 19• It is possible that the past few weeks have allowed you to become a little bit clearer concerning certain questions you have about your feelings in regard to what you think your destiny is. It would now be better for you to stop thinking about such things and let life take over for you. You are well armed for this kind of thing!
I’m going to be very real and very transparent with you all. There are times when I really struggle with ” feeling ” what to say and how to say it.
As one comes to the point of realization that they are going to die, a process begins; a journey from the known life of this world to the unknown of what lies ahead. As that process begins, I have started on a mental path of discovery, comprehending that death will indeed occur and believing in my own mortality. The journey ultimately leads to the physical departure from my body. Death is a personal journey for me that each of us individually approaches in our own unique way. Nothing is set in concrete, nothing is set in stone. There are many paths one can take on this journey but all lead to the same destination. I know I’m not alone in this situation. But I don’t know where all the others are. And in my circle of family and friends I certainly am not the only one in this situation. I just know it will come sooner then later for me that’s all, which makes it almost impossible to talk about. If I want to talk about my death, it saddens others. They don’t want to hear it nor want to deal with it. I am sure there are places to go and people to talk to if I want to talk about the practical side of death and dying, but what about the emotional stuff?
Not all of us are going to grow old and grey. Some of us, for whatever reason, are going to die in our prime. But we need to remember that everyone is dying – we just get to die young and beautiful! Whatever the reason, it can be very hard to come to terms with the fact that we are dying young; there are milestones along this journey. Because everyone experiences death in their own unique way, not everyone will stop at each milestone. Some may hit only a few while another may stop at each one, taking their time along the way. Some may take months to reach their destination, others will take only days. The only good thing about being on an emotional roller coaster is that you never feel the same way for long.
Now I Am Only a Fraction of What I Was, You see I was taken off work about two years ago and fighting this government for social security, what a concept at my age. Well now almost two years later my case was sent to California and I was assigned a Judge from there it was going to be a satellite TV hearing but the Judge came here to Michigan at the US Courthouse, which by the way is very nice courthouse. To hear my case it was funny I was her only case, well all the experts for the court were still in California and were on intercom and they gave their medical expertise on my case and all the medical record that has been piled on me. And after that the doctors said to me that they were very sorry for me, I started to cry on what they were saying to me and about my condition, and the judge looked at me and said Mr. Neal you are getting all your money owed and you are getting your social security. I told the judge that I was
sorry for crying, and she said that its ok I was her only case and she had nowhere to be. And then she looked at her fellow court room law partners and said out of her 50 year career this was the shortest case ever.
So you will know what the Doctors said about me, well that is why I was crying it really did not surprise me, inside me I already new. I am now listed as terminally ill, and will not be on the heart transplant list I will not live long enough to receive it. I want everyone who is reading this to understand!
It’s ok I have come to terms with my condition and where I am heading I have been searching my self and how I truly feel about the realization of heaven and hell, good and bad, My personal journey for me is that I am approaching in my own unique way.
Death is not a pleasant topic of conversation. Trust me I understand that really I do but the one thing I will truly never accept is the lack of concern from people when they know someone is dying. In my experience I wish people could understand me when I say that it’s a part of me, yes its not who I am but it’s there and no way of getting around it. I truly wished my family was the kind that you see on TV or the families at a park chatting hanging out just enjoying being together but I am sure that will never happen in my lifetime. And you know that really sucks!! I can remember when we were all kids and went to the park had a great time picnics playing ball just being together. Even though I can truly say I have never been too close to my brothers or sisters. I have always felt like an outsider looking in through a window that was locked and not letting me in. but at this point in my life I will say I have always felt close to my mother and felt her love and always will. I love you mom.
It’s funny my friends, Hmmmm when I was in the hospital from a heart attack about 2 years now all my friends stopped talking to me never answered my calls and never called me back, which made them not truly a friend, I do Have 3 very special friends in my life that are close to me, and their names are My Mom ( Myrtle Mitchell), Lisa Kernes, Cathy Quick. I love you guys more than you will ever know. And my online friends even though we have never met, I am glad you are my friends.
I want to thank you for reading this and letting me share a little with you! And if you only remember one thing, Dying alone is not fun and that is where I will be.
Robert Neal
November 7th 2009
Remember this, I will be Fine. I have come to terms with my Destiny and accept it for what it is. Death is unique and therefore each person's experience is unique and is a part of Life’s Journey. Having you with me in that Journey is all up to you!
By Robert D Neal
This was my horoscope today, it hit home. Aries March 21 - April 19• It is possible that the past few weeks have allowed you to become a little bit clearer concerning certain questions you have about your feelings in regard to what you think your destiny is. It would now be better for you to stop thinking about such things and let life take over for you. You are well armed for this kind of thing!
I’m going to be very real and very transparent with you all. There are times when I really struggle with ” feeling ” what to say and how to say it.
As one comes to the point of realization that they are going to die, a process begins; a journey from the known life of this world to the unknown of what lies ahead. As that process begins, I have started on a mental path of discovery, comprehending that death will indeed occur and believing in my own mortality. The journey ultimately leads to the physical departure from my body. Death is a personal journey for me that each of us individually approaches in our own unique way. Nothing is set in concrete, nothing is set in stone. There are many paths one can take on this journey but all lead to the same destination. I know I’m not alone in this situation. But I don’t know where all the others are. And in my circle of family and friends I certainly am not the only one in this situation. I just know it will come sooner then later for me that’s all, which makes it almost impossible to talk about. If I want to talk about my death, it saddens others. They don’t want to hear it nor want to deal with it. I am sure there are places to go and people to talk to if I want to talk about the practical side of death and dying, but what about the emotional stuff?
Not all of us are going to grow old and grey. Some of us, for whatever reason, are going to die in our prime. But we need to remember that everyone is dying – we just get to die young and beautiful! Whatever the reason, it can be very hard to come to terms with the fact that we are dying young; there are milestones along this journey. Because everyone experiences death in their own unique way, not everyone will stop at each milestone. Some may hit only a few while another may stop at each one, taking their time along the way. Some may take months to reach their destination, others will take only days. The only good thing about being on an emotional roller coaster is that you never feel the same way for long.
Now I Am Only a Fraction of What I Was, You see I was taken off work about two years ago and fighting this government for social security, what a concept at my age. Well now almost two years later my case was sent to California and I was assigned a Judge from there it was going to be a satellite TV hearing but the Judge came here to Michigan at the US Courthouse, which by the way is very nice courthouse. To hear my case it was funny I was her only case, well all the experts for the court were still in California and were on intercom and they gave their medical expertise on my case and all the medical record that has been piled on me. And after that the doctors said to me that they were very sorry for me, I started to cry on what they were saying to me and about my condition, and the judge looked at me and said Mr. Neal you are getting all your money owed and you are getting your social security. I told the judge that I was
sorry for crying, and she said that its ok I was her only case and she had nowhere to be. And then she looked at her fellow court room law partners and said out of her 50 year career this was the shortest case ever.
So you will know what the Doctors said about me, well that is why I was crying it really did not surprise me, inside me I already new. I am now listed as terminally ill, and will not be on the heart transplant list I will not live long enough to receive it. I want everyone who is reading this to understand!
It’s ok I have come to terms with my condition and where I am heading I have been searching my self and how I truly feel about the realization of heaven and hell, good and bad, My personal journey for me is that I am approaching in my own unique way.
Death is not a pleasant topic of conversation. Trust me I understand that really I do but the one thing I will truly never accept is the lack of concern from people when they know someone is dying. In my experience I wish people could understand me when I say that it’s a part of me, yes its not who I am but it’s there and no way of getting around it. I truly wished my family was the kind that you see on TV or the families at a park chatting hanging out just enjoying being together but I am sure that will never happen in my lifetime. And you know that really sucks!! I can remember when we were all kids and went to the park had a great time picnics playing ball just being together. Even though I can truly say I have never been too close to my brothers or sisters. I have always felt like an outsider looking in through a window that was locked and not letting me in. but at this point in my life I will say I have always felt close to my mother and felt her love and always will. I love you mom.
It’s funny my friends, Hmmmm when I was in the hospital from a heart attack about 2 years now all my friends stopped talking to me never answered my calls and never called me back, which made them not truly a friend, I do Have 3 very special friends in my life that are close to me, and their names are My Mom ( Myrtle Mitchell), Lisa Kernes, Cathy Quick. I love you guys more than you will ever know. And my online friends even though we have never met, I am glad you are my friends.
I want to thank you for reading this and letting me share a little with you! And if you only remember one thing, Dying alone is not fun and that is where I will be.
Robert Neal
November 7th 2009
Remember this, I will be Fine. I have come to terms with my Destiny and accept it for what it is. Death is unique and therefore each person's experience is unique and is a part of Life’s Journey. Having you with me in that Journey is all up to you!
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